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FEAR keeps me from changing, and what keeps me afraid is having CHOICES. Knowing that I have crutches to lean on keeps me afraid. When I know that there’s a safety net waiting hanging for me  internally and externally; emotionally, psychologically and economically, I remain afraid. Why? Because having choices creates a constant underlying FEAR of LOSING these choices, these crutches, these safety nets which appear to provide the CHOICE of “security” [is there even such a thing in REALITY?]. But as long as I am AFRAID there is no room, NO CHANCE IN HELL, of changing superficially, let alone CHANGING INTERNALLY which is the ONLY CHANGE that matters – the only change that will make a difference in my Life regardless of external circumstances and situations. Internal change is the only change that will make a difference in ANY LIFE on ALL PLANES OF EXISTENCE.

You see, I NEED to BELIEVE that I don’t have the choice to lean on anyone or anything. I NEED to BELIEVE that I have only myself to rely on – only myself to depend upon. This isn’t a matter of pride – the kind of pride that makes people momentarily and falsely declare out of pure emotionalism that: “I can do it myself! I don’t need YOUR help! I don’t need ANYONE’s help!” No, this is the opposite of pride. This is an ACT. This is taking an ‘about-face’ from ages of passive idiocy standing and staring into the absent, stagnant, dead, and dark corner of EGO.

This BELIEF that I cannot BELIEVE that I have any choices or routes of escape is the UNDOING OF FEAR.

The undoing of fear is the most essential first step towards a GENIUNE, BEAUTIFUL, IMPERCEIVABLE, DIVINE YET UNMIRACULOUS METAMORPHOSIS.

It is the first true ACT of stepping upon the knowable unknown path of UNDOING – BEING – LOVE – PEACE – and absolute FREEDOM. This means that whatever help I require externally can never depend upon any internal, psychological or emotional crutch, but on an INTENTIONAL decision to acquire the required help, without the CHOICE of securing SECURITY. Without the CHOICE of being afraid.

I will have to ACT, not react, in order to HELP MYSELF.

CHOICE BEGETS FEAR AND FEAR BEGETS THE PATH OF SELFISHNESS WHICH BRANCHES INTO ALL OTHER KNOWN PATHS OF VIOLENCE.

TO UNDO FEAR, I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO UNDO CHOICE.

FEAR NOT.

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