It’s been many weeks since I’ve written anything. In this blog’s “Invitation” page I do promise that “The Chronicle of a Lone Sheep blog will be published on a weekly basis at the end of each week”. Yet I’ve allowed more than six weeks to pass since my last post as each week I justified my postponement of this ACT which I initially began with so much fervor, refusing to let any excuse stop me or the momentum of my weekly writing. 

I have been experiencing, it seems, what some have called “the drop” or the “half note”, a natural law among the countless natural laws which interferes with one’s attainment of some momentum. This law, I suppose, can also be called the Law of Boredom which occurs and recurs in the psychological world of the thinking mind. This law’s parallel in the physical world may be Isaac Newton‘s simple saying, “What goes up, must come down” – psychologically, the bell curve captured in six words.

Yes, it does seem that there exists between every few whole notes a half note – a drop – a loss of momentum wherein the whole note becomes a half note, wherein passion becomes work, wherein ‘good’ turns to ‘bad’, wherein excitement becomes boredom.

These are the gaps (can I call them ‘potholes’?) which seem to appear naturally over time like erosions on the course of life – both the psychological course and the physical course. These gaps are the potholes which slow down or kill the momentum of one’s drive.

What does it mean to begin some thing – some idea, some dream, some goal, some relationship, some project? What does it mean to end something or deviate from some thing which has begun – that same idea, that same dream, that same goal, that same relationship, that same project?

When I begin a relationship, for example, a friendship with someone, this friendship usually begins on a ‘good’ note, a whole note. Otherwise, why would this friendship begin at all? This friendship shall follow a definite progressive path in the shape of a bell curve. And while the friendship may not end all together it seems inevitable that the growing momentum or ‘excitement’ of all the little adventures on the course of this relationship – the first meetings, the subsequent get togethers, the passionate exchanges of ideas, laughter, support, and tears – is bound to descend into some kind of pothole, some kind of ‘drop’, some kind of boredom which causes one to justify “seeing less” of that friend for whatever reason.

Given enough time, the Law of Boredom seems to apply to every kind of intentional initiation of any act, including the desire to fulfill both short and long-term dreams or goals. Short term goals, of course, are usually a function of long term dreams and individually are less likely to be affected by this Law of Deviation (this is what I’m calling it). A short-term goal which is psychologically treated as one step instead of one of many steps is perhaps not as likely to fall within the bell curve of this law.

Maybe it would be more clear to say that the psychological drop of interest can be neutralized by a conscious effort, that is, an intentional trick or approach which neutralizes the effect of the Law of Boredom. For example, if I think of the dream as a whole I somehow feel less susceptible to the law of deviation. I feel motivated and driven when I think of the dream as a whole. On the other hand, if I approach my dream by projecting (thinking of) all the small steps (goals) necessary to the attainment of this dream then I tend to feel the pressure of a curve in the road making me more likely to turn around and deviate from my intended course of action.

This law, therefore, becomes an obstacle to the fulfillment of a dream if one doesn’t pay close attention to the path that one has intentionally started. Can I learn to UNDO this natural happening, this law of deviation? Can I learn to neutralize the effects of the potholes of boredom on the momentum which my drive has initiated?

Evidently, I am back to writing and this can be considered an Undoing of this Law which did hit me hard, but it took quite a bit of energy to get out of this little pothole. When I imagined myself writing I imagined all the tediousness of the act, instead of simply writing. Why didn’t I simply write? Why did I have to think about writing? This is the pitfall isn’t it? I am bound by thought, therefore, I am also psychologically bound by this natural law of deviation or boredom.

So better yet, can I avoid the pothole all together? Is it possible? Can I give the course I’m on such great attention, can I watch it so carefully in detail from moment to moment as to not miss the sign of a single appearance of any obstacle? That is, can I keep myself from thinking about the dream and simply act upon it?

With a little effort I can Undo or push myself out of a small pothole and resume my momentum on the course in just a short while. With great effort I can probably Undo a large ‘drop’ though it may take a long while to gain back the momentum I have lost.

Maybe, just maybe, I can simply stay on my intended course in continuity, never breaking the momentum, never deviating from the course I have intentionally chosen. If I watch my self very closely maybe I can see the Law of Boredom coming from miles away and actively rise above its relentless vicious grip, placing instead my self as an obstacle against the approaching boredom.

Yes, instead of boredom becoming an obstacle to my act, my act will become an obstacle to boredom!